So ending the first week home as a full-time mom, again. This time it is different since my two youngest are both in school full-time. I find myself with my mornings free to do what i want. Rather than lay in bed feeling sorry for myself, I decided to start walking in the morning. I live pretty close to a huge park and dam, it is the perfect place to walk. This week i walked four mornings, and logged 11 miles. I am pretty proud of myself. It is so calming to put the earbuds in and just walk. I walk near water and that is just an added benefit.
The only down side is that my left foot seems determined to make this getting healthy thing harder than it needs to be..... My foot is just aching all the time. I have tried advil, more cushiony socks and an ankle brace. Still not doing it. Thinking I may need wider shoes if I am continue on this pace.
The last few years, I have buried feelings with food. Managed to gain all the weight I lost back and then some. (Isn't that the same ol' story every one tells) I am not really on a diet, just on the road to a better way of life. I would love to have some quick fix to get me back to my fighting weight, and feeling better in my skin. I think that would help boost the drop in confidence I have. Being single and my age is not easy.... my couple of attempts at dating have both ended badly. The last one really had me thinking maybe it was me and not him. And by me, very self conscious to my heaviness.... sigh. I know that I am not obese or anything, but I am certainly shaped like a round apple right now.
It won't be easy, I know. I just got to keep plugging along til the changes I am attempting become second nature. Lets home the weight starts going down and away for good.... I miss how i felt three years ago. Even though i was emotionally a wreck, i felt good in my skin. does that even make sense???
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