Monday, April 16, 2012

first day of a new chapter.

So realty hit me hard last week when my boss called me into his office and told me i was getting laid off.  I cannot say i was really surprised, our company has been slow for months now, but i was still shocked to hear the words.    I cried a lot last Thursday.   I think the hardest part of the day was saying good bye to my boss, DB.   I really never imagined having to say to good bye to him.   He was/is a great friend who got me thru some really hard stuff the last few years.   He reminded me a lot of my ex husband and made me realize that there might still be a good man out there.   I would take DB, except of course he is married.  LOL

I have decided to return to being a stay at home mom for as long as I can.   I think it will be good for me and may help me decided where to go from here.   My job was supposed to be a stepping stone to something better and instead i stayed there for 5 years.  Totally placated by the flexibility it offered me with kids but at the same time totally dreading the drive in and my hours spent there.   I see this opportunity to stay home as a rebuilding time for me.   I am five years recovered from my marriage falling apart and now i think its time to heal my soul.

Not sure what route i am gonna take on this blog.  For now writing will be therapeutic i am sure... i don't care if anyone reads this.  I just need to get the words out i guess.

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